Below are the 5 most recent journal entries recorded in Gem's LiveJournal:

Sunday, April 20th, 2003
8:57 pm	SUCK horrible. i just spent about 20 minutes writing this big essay about why i am so pissed off right now. but i realised how mortified i would be if the guy read it. ... i just remembered i could lock private entries. DAMN ME FOR DELETING IT! fuckkkkk. anyhow. guys are shit. they don't understand girls well me, anyway. remind me to NEVER EVER get attached to a guy again. i always do it. and it does me more harm than good. having said that, he'll probably sweet talk me in the next unlikely event of me getting to talk to him and i'll be back here singing his praises. haha... god. thank fuck i keep my options relatively open! my friend James has this cousin, Freddie staying over... i need him to matchmake us. apparently Freddie is hot but shy. i'll open him up... ;) i'm gonna stop now. but i'll retrieve what i deleted and add it on the bottom of this so y'all can see! Current Mood: lonely Current Music: TJS - subject to change (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, April 17th, 2003
7:20 pm	here in this diary! i write you visions of my summer! its gonna be the best i ever had ;) see what i did there? see how i altered The Ataris? THAT is genius. so whats been going on with me... hmm. revision for the most part. hang on, yes that is a lie. i've just been... hanging out. its the holidays! but that does not mean i can shrink from my task of revising. lets sum up my week. Friday - finished school. w00t! Saturday - attended "dreg extraordinairre" Carl's house party. got relatively laced. Sunday - .... i have no idea. i think i have short term memory loss. Monday - I believe i went to the cinema with Ellie, Jon and Ellie's cousin... muchos fun :) Tuesday - Watched lots of boys running about in shorts (played footie ;-)) then went to work. BLEURGH. hating work. Wednesday - sunbathed :) - AND revised. Also, went to the crypt to see/photograph Anal*Dave, the only knew they were playing for about 3 hours prior to this show. about 50 people there. haha :) and i sunbathed today whilst listening to Jon and Vic's new song, but it turns out i am allergic to my suncream, hence this rather unflattering red rash where i applied it. i'm having a quiet one tonight. I'm getting some bitches up to watch movies with me. \m/ xvanwilderxcorex \m/ Current Mood: discontent Current Music: the ataris as ever (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 2nd, 2003
11:44 am	grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr At school. I keep having to turn round to see if the teacher is watching me. oh the risk of it all. So. I overslept AGAIN today. So i was late again. I'm feeling kinda sad because 1 week ago i was on my way to London to see Finch and BN :( I miss that day. I have the worst PMT. it is actually quite funny. this week i have just started crying at the TINIEST things. i cried for about 2 hours the other night because it's months and months until reading. HAHAHA!! what a geek! and i cried during and after the finch/brand new shows. BN played the no seatbelt song - i cried. Jesse played a new song about his grandad with cancer i cried. It's so unnecessary! god damn. I nearly decided to quit gigs all together the other day because the withdrawal symptoms are too much. haha... then i was like "grow the fuck up, you retard". So now i'm all good. I've got no gigs lined up for ages... :( nothing until BRAAANNNDD NEWWWWWWW and TBS!! :) on may 24th. i'll probably cry. :) whoever said time flies when you're having fun needs to be shot. or i just need to start having fun again... also, i'm really missing some people. and it's SUCKING because i know one of them doesn't miss me back. men are all jerks. :) Current Mood: pessimistic Current Music: i'm playing Staring Back - Version 2.0 in my mind. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 24th, 2003
5:04 pm	HOW tired am I? I feel dead. School was a drag today... All my friends had their Art exam (i am one of the only ones who don't take Art) so I was a loner in my classes! :-O I slept through most lessons... The only thing that kept me going was my walkman. Good old mixtapes :-) Also, another thing that kept me going was the thought that in 48 hours i WILL be seeing Finch. And Emilie!! (i don't know which i'm more excited about! :-P) At the train station after school, i saw this guy who i made out with a few times at The Crypt (a punk rock club near me... for which you have to be 18 to enter..!) and he saw me. in my SCHOOL UNIFORM. and he thought i was 18 before... it was soooooooo embarrassing. one more thing. WHY DO I ALWAYS WANT THE UNATTAINABLE GUYS?!!!?!!? fuck this life. ciao, my babies! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Current Mood: cranky Current Music: The Donots (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 23rd, 2003
10:08 pm	losing my virginity yup. i am now losing my LJ virginity ;-) and you lucky people are witnessing it. so, i decided to get a livejournal at last... i don't know why. i never kept a diary for longer than a moth, so maybe (being a netgeek and all) this is a preferable alternative for me. I don't really know what kind of stuff to put... do i just talk about what i did today or something? well, my cat had kittens on friday evening so i've been watching them shake their kitten thang for a bit... they are so sweet :-/ don't wanna give them up in 2 months... I read my old Rock Sound magazine with Finch, Brand New, SoCo etc.. in. now THATS my idea of a perfect line up in a magazine :-) then i came on the internet! spoke to a friend of mine who's in a band... i won't name him in case he ever sees it. i don't wanna feel like an idiot (kinda ironic seeing as i'm telling an internet journal about myself...)! my brother just told me i have to get off in 5 minutes, so with that i will leave you. there's 4 minutes of your life you will never EVER get back. haha ;-) over 'n' out... xxx gem xxx Current Mood: thoughtful Current Music: the june spirit (4 Comments |Comment on this)